I am a Ballsi member. Ballsi consists of myself, Imi Gal, Wasdkug, Heavy, Rin, Otis, and Mento. While others may see Ballsi as “just an online friend group”, it is much more than that to us.
I am German, from the region of Rheinhessen. I also strongly identify with my fictional countries, particularly Nyria, as well as with Novorossia, although I am not Russian and have never been there. I also identify more with Ballsi as a group and entity (the Ballsi Republic) than I do with my country.
I am aromantic (aro). That means I do not experience romantic attraction to anyone. More specifically, I call myself radically aromantic (rad-aro), as I have an extreme aversion to romance and find it physically repulsive and consider it to be a disease. Other terms that apply to me are romance-repulsed and apothiromantic. The combined term for aromantic and asexual is aro-ace.
I am ægosexual. This is a form of asexuality that means I experience sexual attraction and have sexual thoughts, but do not have the desire to participate in any sexual actions with other people. In fact, I find the thought of doing such to be repulsive and uncomfortable. I am lesbian-aligned polysexual, meaning I am attracted to multiple genders, particularly feminine ones. I am fraysexual (also a form of asexuality), meaning my attraction to somebody dies down after I get to know them better. I am also fictosexual (also a form of asexuality), meaning I am mostly attracted to fictional characters rather than people I know in real life.
I am a trans woman, more specifically, I am a trans woman who is not interested in a medical transition, as I would rather have no sexual organs. I use she/her pronouns, though I also don’t mind they/them or it/its pronouns.
I am disabled/neurodivergent, in particular: autism, ADHD, dyspraxia, OCD, and PTSD (with psychotic features). I do not consider this a liability and am quite proud of it.
I am not plural (i. e. DID), I simply like to express myself through fictional characters sometimes, as it may be easier for me (for example when I am stressed). I am not claiming to be plural or trying to mock plural people. If I use the pronoun “we” when referring to myself, then I am talking about Ballsi as a group.
I am touch-averse, meaning I am very uncomfortable with physical touch. I am also on the asensual spectrum, which means I do not feel sensual attraction (the desire to touch people).
I experience æsthetic and platonic attraction, meaning I find people pretty and feel the desire to be friends with people. Anything I say (compliments, nicknames, etc.) is strictly platonic and æsthetic.
I am on the afamilial spectrum, meaning I do not love people immediately because they are family. This does not mean I don’t love my family, it means that the fact they are family does not automatically make me love them. I still love many people who happen to also be related to me. Another word to refer to how I feel is demifamilial, as the demi- prefix means that I feel this form of attraction to people after getting to know them.
I am nomifluid, meaning I go by multiple names and prefer some over others at different times. I always display which name I currently go by in the pronouns section of my Discord profile.
I am a democratic socialist, more specifically, my ideology is the same as that of Nyria in Celsys, which I simply call the Nyrian Model or Ballsi Socialism.
I am Z, meaning I support Russia in the current Special Military Operation. My reason for this is not just political, while I do heavily support the Novorossia and DPR/LPR movements and hate the Nazis who are running Ukraine, I also have many negative personal experiences with Ukraine and Ukrainian people which further strengthened this viewpoint. Legal disclaimer: I do not endorse any war crimes or civilian deaths on any side in any conflict :)
I am Seist, which is the name I have given to my own personal religious views. I believe in God (Sei) and the Devil (Shayṭān), Heaven and Hell, and demons (Agents of Shayṭān, people who are sent by the Devil to harm others). Seism is heavily based on morality, with those who hurt others going to Hell, while people who live a good life and help others go to Heaven.